It's All Good

Everything in my life seems to fall on the right path. Everything is smooth and according to my plan. I should feel good and happy about it but yet I still feel unsatisfied.

I am still in search for other options throughout my life either in career wise, financial and my love life too. I want to make things far better than what I have currently. That is normal I guess.

Many things had happened to me for the past few months, both good and bad. I had been promoted, got an increment, got a second increment, been offered a new job which I declined, been hurt by my loved one, dumped my boyfriend, got back together with him, ended up discussing about marriage with him and so on.

It had been few months now with so many ups and downs throughout my life. Whatever it is is has surely make me more mature in living this life. I feel that I have learn a lot from these and it has make me wiser each and every day.

I am proud to say that I am managing my problems more rationally now. No more tantrums or sneaking behind the back any longer. I even feel more confident with myself.

I am confident with my job, confident with the trust my boss given to me, and I am positive with the amount of increment and bonus I have yet to received. I am also happy with my relationship with my close friends and I am even certain that my boyfriend won't dump me for another woman. But sadly I am still not sure about him not lying to me though. Well sometimes I do lie to him too. So let skip that part shall we? :p

Despites all of the mentioned above, such my stable career, I am still looking for another job, more secured job, preferably with a multinational company. I want more challenging assignments and more money off course. That reminds me, I have a job interview this coming Wednesday with an event company. So wish me luck!

I have started to execute my so called "blueprint" for my future. Firstly is buying a house. Currently I am looking around for a good and affordable house, an apartment or condominium to be precise. It is easy for me to manage. Right now I am torn between an apartment in Bukit Jalil and a fully furnished apartment in Puchong which the price is about the same range. I am going to view the apartment tomorrow. So by end of next year, hopefully I will have my own apartment. :)

Secondly is to start my own business. I have business plan in mind, just waiting for the right moment and enough capital in hand. At the moment, I am looking for any business courses to attend to, simply to keep myself well-prepared for the business world. Pray hard!

Love life, even though my boyfriend proposed to me last week, but I am still in doubt. I can't see myself as a wife. I am also scared to live a marriage life and leave what I have now. I do want to get married and have kids of my own, but I am still unsure. I am terrified to be exact. Too many things had happened in my love life. I had been through a lot and thankfully we-my boyfriend and I, managed to sort things out. Actually he managed to gain my trust back, convinced me and make our relationship stronger each day. But I still have doubts, so at the moment, I can only pray and hope for the best.

I really hope I will be able to achieve those things that I mentioned to make my life better. If do so, I definitely will be at ease and feel content.

Btw, I am leaving to Siem Reap, Cambodia this coming weekend. It is a 4 days 3 nights company trip and I am looking forward to it.